Welcome To The Official Jennifer Vazquez Website!

Welcome To The Official Jennifer Vazquez Website!

Welcome To The Official Jennifer Vazquez Website!

Welcome To The Official Jennifer Vazquez Website!

Please feel free to browse around. There is much to be enjoyed! Make sure you take advantage of the monthly FREE download.  This month I am giving you a song off my first album, Another Day In The Dark, called, ”On Cloud Nothing”. Hope you enjoy listening to it! 

Welcome To The Official Jennifer Vazquez Website!

A few days ago I was at the taping of “The Rhythms Of New York”.  I was asked to be their musical guest and I will be talking more about that in a minute. I had gotten to the studio 30 minutes early and decided to check my email. It’s a blessing to have these gadgets now, like the iPhone, but yes, it can also be a curse if I let them run my life. I personally find it useful to be able to stay connected and on top of important events and musical projects. So, as I check my email, there is one from this guy saying a friend of mine recommended me to him. He was looking for a artist to complete his final line up for an upcoming event in NYC. He sent me all the info and said to check it out and let him know asap if I would be interested. I calmly looked through the info and then ended up speaking to him on the phone and even with that negative chatter racing around in my head, I took a deep breathe and  said “YES”! As thoughts quickly roamed around inside my head saying, “Who do you think you are?”, “People don’t want to spend their Monday night watching you and 8 songwriters sing songs”, “Forget it, no one will come”, I kept my thoughts focused clearly on my purpose, “To Be Of Service Through My Music” and  ”To Be Part Of The Bigger Plan”. And so I said “YES”!

I would love for those reading this blog and who do live in NY to share in this wonderful event with me. I now see that the only way for me to be fully abundant as a storyteller and artist is to practice sharing my gift with others, while letting go of the fear of being judged. By my saying yes to perform with this wonderful touring group coming to NY next month called, “The 9 Songwriter Series”, I truly get to practice inviting people, one at a time, and being ok with whatever happens as a result of my courage and fearlessness. I am now excited to share my gift rather than run away from it. I want this night to be magical and that means having you sit in a seat at the City Winery on March 19th to experience the gifts of 9 GREAT storytellers play 27 songs done in a format you have never seen before, and yes, I am one of those 9!

So, I am humbly extending an invitation to you, personally. We are all connected on some level and therefore you were a part of my saying “YES” to this wonderful opportunity. I would be grateful if you came, if you were available. I am a storyteller and I am happy to have this opportunity to share this event with you!

If you would like to accept this invitation to: “The 9 Songwriter Series on Monday, March 19th at 8pm at City Winery”,

Click Here: CITY WINERY: 3/19 – “The 9 Songwriter Series”  & For Directions: City Winery

All the information you need will be at these two links above, along with ticket prices and a full description on this wonderful series started by a talented musician named Justin Trawick 

Thank you for being a part of this journey!

2. “The Rhythms of New York” – The Teaser & The Taping

The past two weeks have been pretty fun, both with shooting the teaser and then with the taping of “The Rhythms of New York” this past Tuesday. Dave Brodsky, the producer and host of the show got a hold of me about two months ago to see if I would like to be a musical guest on an upcoming show. Well, staying in my present state of mind, I said… “YES”! Rather than talk about those two experiences, how about I just show you what happened.  Enjoy…..

This show will air on: Manhattan Neighborhood Network (MNN) – Channel 56 (TW)/ 83 (RCN) /34 (VRZN)

Saturday: 3/10, 4/07, 5/05 & 6/23   AT: 3:30 PM  

This show will air on: Bronxnet – Channel 68 (Cablevision) / Channel 34 (FIOS)

Tuesday  3/13, 4/10, 5/08 & 6/26   AT:  11:30PM 

Follow The Rhythms Of New York on Facebook

3. “I Wanna Be Pinocchio”

And Lastly… I want to share a fun story with you. Last week, a friend on mine got in touch with me on Facebook after watching “The Rhythms of New York Teaser”.  She said how she loved the Teaser and the song I sang on it, which was a small portion of, “I Wanna Be Pinocchio”. Then, she said she had an idea. Her daughter is having a Talent Show at her new school in Arizona; they have an audition on Feb 28th.  She said how her daughter loves to sing and had decided to try out and sing one of the popular songs for the audition.  And then she said that she wanted to know if her daughter could sing one of my songs, preferably “Pinocchio”!  She said she’d make sure to say I was the writer and composer, and she understood if I chose to say no. “NO? I think not”. Once again, I said “YES”! And again, those thoughts came to my mind… what if this and what if that… and then I thought…. “What if” doesn’t do anyone any good. But, sharing my talents and gifts with others, that surely does! That is the bigger plan here; not to hold onto it… but to give it away! And now, I am so excited to hear all about the audition and how my friends’s daughter does. I told her to tape it so I can share it with you guys. Her response to my saying “YES” was, ”Thank you, Jenny! I told Sonya that you let her sing your song and she was jumping!!! She was so happy!” And that response made my saying “YES” already worth it!

Until We Meet Again…

Ah, I think that’s it for now. Blog #10 is complete! Slowly and calmly I take one more step closer to finding Pinocchio a home! Thank you for being here to witness this journey and thank you for allowing me to be of service to you.

Welcome To The Official Jennifer Vazquez Website!

Blog # 9: Letting Go Of “The Plan”         

What do I want to talk about right now? It’s been a few weeks since I wrote the last blog. As that time has passed, I have experienced quite a bit of new awareness surrounding the vision I have of making money fully through my art and the money it is going to take to fund this vision correctly, in the hopes that by being focused on this vision, day in and day out, it will guide me towards financial abundance. As this awareness has recently hit me, I have found a new willingness to begin the process of finding another “B” job to continue to fund my “A” job, my vision. This awareness of my need to search for another job became even more clear when I was faced with a family emergency that forced me to think about the areas in my life which still remain to be off balance.  It is my responsibility to be willing to do what I need to do to allow abundance into all the areas of my life.

Now, the one thought that comes to mind after sharing all that I just did with you is this idea of getting out of our own way so that things can happen in your life at their own pace, rather than the need to force control on what you want and when you want it. If you were to take time and just breathe, you would eventually become aware that you are here for a purpose. We all are! It’s just that we lose tract of our “Purpose” and float subconsciously into “Survival” or “Ego” mode from our past experiences. In these modes, you can’t really do much healthy and abundant living. There is no real room for it. I mean, you can’t thrive when you are trying to survive. And, you most certainly cannot be healthy when abundance does hit, and the ego takes you over. That just leads to self sabotage, as Charlie Sheen so clearly showed the whole world during his “WINNING” escapade.

But, if you are willing to clear a space in your life to find out what your purpose is, and then, bring that into existence a little at a time, with the guidance and support of those you trust and love, well then, then you have a true shot at a life filled with abundance in every way, shape or form. And then, once you have found ways to bring your purpose and vision to life, you can then make yourself available for others who need help along the way. The actual succcess you will attain in your life is small potatoes compaired to the contribution you can be to others along the way. And the key to staying calm, at peace and in balance throughout your life is to take it one day at a time and to always remind yourself that you are here to be you, nobody else! You are exactly who you need to be to follow through with the bigger plan.

So, just to drive this point home, let’s take it and apply it to my journey. I humbly admit now that I stood in the way of my own happiness and abundance with my career as an artist, musician and performer for many years by trying to do things all by myself and making it appear that I was just fine and I didn’t need a bit of help. The truth is, I wanted to be helped, I was just afraid of letting someone into my career that I had molded and sculpted for all these years and I, I, I… exactly! I couldn’t get passed this ego driven crazy person in my head that was so focused on THE PLAN! I focused on that plan of becoming a rockstar for so many years and that, that is what kept me in a place of lacking and judgement and true unhappiness. I couldn’t find my smile no matter how hard I tried, behind closed doors. It was like every performance was a quick fix to make me feel complete again; to fill that void that kept creeping up on me, over and over and over again. Once the gig was over and I was back in my own space, I felt empty again. I felt like I was of no use to anyone. There was no real joy in doing what I was doing after the years passed because as I was controlling this boat of mine, I couldn’t find any balance and real feeling of true contribution anymore.  I was doing it all for THE PLAN. I was moving forward only for the ego to get it’s fix, and the worst of it, the worst of it is I hadn’t a clue that this is what was making me so sad and unclear. This need to control and feed the ego. CRAZY! But not really…. Many people experience this day in and day out…. And so, towards the end of this very unavoidable downfall, I thought I was going crazy. I was so afraid that I lost my will to follow through with the one thing I truly loved to do, the one thing that brought me calm.  But it wasn’t doing that anymore.  I was lost!

There was no room for abundance while I was trying to control my vision. I experienced both of those modes I spoke of a moment ago, “Survival” and “Ego”.  I lost  track of my “Purpose”, floating subconsiously into a place of total lacking, yet at the same time feeling like I was owed something because of all the hard work I had done. What a joke! I mean really. It’s funny, truly funny to me. I was so scared of this not being my purpose that I did a great amount of white knuckling, holding that goal of mine so tight. “I will follow through with THE PLAN, no matter what!” I never stopped to get the full impact that maybe, just maybe, if I let go a little, clarity within my vision and purpose would come to me calmly, and maybe in a different way than I had planned, but one that would allow others to truly get something out of me other than my drive and ego. I was so clouded by THE PLAN that I wouldn’t let people guide me towards a greater place, one that could possibly bring me closer to being of true service in a more loving and powerful way. “What if I just let go of the way I saw things and let the vision guide me rather than I guide it. What if, I had a little faith in God, in something bigger than myself, rather than let my ego really think it had the answers, even though it so didn’t.”

And I now see that many people over the years truly stood behind me and helped me out in so many ways; I couldn’t even begin to list all the goodness that surrounded me. Yet, I stuck with THE PLAN and after a while, I found a way to push them away from me so I could go back to doing things alone! I was too thick headed to be humble and trust in a bigger plan than the one I set up so long ago! I didn’t see then that I needed others just as much as others needed me. I didn’t want to admit that I wasn’t perfect, that I couldn’t handle it all by myself. What’s so funny as I am writing all of this is how crazy those thought patterns of mine were!  And how scary it can be to think that that internal fearful voice of mine could drive me so far off the edge until I got clear and became aware of all of this! And now, now I see as vivid as night turns into day, that no human being could have handled what I was trying to do? Not a one! But I really thought it was my responsibility to do it all. And in that distorted view, which I carried around with me like it was my cross to bear, I handled my career over all those years on my own. The funny thing is, I did have many moments of abundance over the years, even in all this internal havoc! While I regret none of what I experienced, as it has gotten me right here, I do regret one thing, that I never gave myself the opportunity to enjoy those magical moments in my own silence.  But that was then and this is now! There are so many more moments I now get to smile at day in and day out, in my own calm silence.

And with that, I say this…  I am quite tickled in my life right now.  I am finding complete balance day in and day out by staying focused on the next right action to take in my life. I am on a path that will lead somewhere, not sure where, and I am getting more comfortable in that space.  I have a vision that I believe is my true purpose and I have this blog, “365 Blogs To Finding Pinocchio A Home”, to be able to share all these thoughts I have, as well as the many songs I have created and will create, with you!

And so, I leave you will a song I wrote called, “Getting Out Of My Own Way”. It is our defects, our inner workings, that must be transformed so that new patterns and healthier ways can enter into our life.  As we change our energy, the world goes from dark to light!

Until next time… yet another day closer to finding Pinocchio A Home!

Welcome to The Official Jennifer Vazquez Website!

Please feel free to browse around.  There is much to be enjoyed!   And… January’s FREE Download is up.  It’s a song called, “It’s Just Gonna Take Some Time”.  Promo Code: believe   Just type the code into the slot on the right hand side where it says, Promo Code, to redeem the song!  And now onto Blog Series # 8 of : “365 Blogs To Finding Pinocchio A Home”…

Blog # 8: Accessing the True Self To Create Abundance

Yes, accessing the true self to create abundance is the next theme.  And I find it perfect to talk about this now, at the very start of 2012.  I do not want to put my foot anywhere into 2012 without that foot being a part of my true self.  I will be the first to tell you that living in truth and being exactly who I am is not easy, until I accept that “that” is who I am, take it or leave it!

Sure, I have wished I was someone else more times than I would like to admit.  And yes, I have dreamed of having someone else’s life as well.  But in doing that, it has guided me in the opposite direction to having an abundant life.  In wanting what is not mine or is not in my reach has only made me unhappy and incomplete.

During 2011, a change occurred.  A part of me began to shift in my mind and body as I began practicing full acceptance of myself.  As I continued this practice, this inner completeness arose inside.  I am excited to continue this way of being and I believe that to do so entails my staying fully present each and every day of my life.  That is where true miracles unfold.

As I follow in this path and find the courage every day to stay in the here and now, allowing my true self to shine, I experience no struggle, no pain and no internal dialogue wondering if I am doing something wrong or if someone else is further along than I am.  That doesn’t even exist.  It all fades away and what is left is an inner calm that is indescribable.  The goal is to stay present as much as possible, so I can stop the ego from entering through that back door it feeds off of so excitedly when I am in my head and not present.  I see very clearly now that I have two parts inside of me, the true self and the ego.  It is up to me to be aware of both of them so I can choose to stop my ego from acting out.  And in that awareness, I am filled with abundance and calm.  And that feeling of lacking and pain, well, it just vanishes.  I see how the ego has fed off of me for so many years as I was in my head pondering and dreaming and staying disconnected to the present day.  Oh yes, the ego has had a blast… And I don’t blame him or her.  It’s just a part of me and now I can make sure not to have it control me.

So as I write blog # 8, I am quite certain that who I am now is not who I was a year ago.  It’s like I finally found the right pair of glasses and now I can see all aspects of my life and those of others, without judgement, and that has given me insight, clarity and the willingness to live courageously.  Simply put, where as a year ago I was a scared little girl dressed up in women’s clothes, hoping no one would find me out, today I am the start of a grown woman, an adult, comfortably accepting the little girl in me, who is now unafraid of her true self, and actually, is starting to see that it is in being her true self that abundance can now gently glide into her life, rather than rush in and out like a tornado.

And so, I share with you this song I wrote a while ago called, “This Is Your Life”.  In a nutshell, this is your life!  No one can do anything for you.  You are the one who must take the actions.  You are the one who must have the courage and faith to let go of the past and not stress about the future and start living the abundant life, that is already yours, if you decide to choose it right now, just as you are!   And finally, certainty lies in two places, the first is within your true self and the second is in the miracles of nature!  Take a look around and get out of your own head.  It’s then, and only then, that your heart will start to beat to the perfect melody of each day!  Give it a try…

In ending Blog #8, I give you my tiny little miracles that have come to me recently by taking one action at a time and being 100% myself:

1.  So, this past Tuesday, January 10th (4 PM ET, 1 PM PT) “Women Of Substance Radio”  played “Lone Pine” on “What’s On My iPod Show”.   In addition, on Wednesday, January 11th Women Of Substance Radio’s “HOT AC  SHOW“ debuted “Lone Pine”  10:00 AM – 11:00 AM Pacific (1:00 PM – 2:00 PM Eastern) on: www.live365.com/stations/breenoble .  And it will be in their top rotation for 3 months!

2.  What else?  Oh, I sent out 4 emails last week to a few music professionals asking for some feedback on “I’m Still Here”, the rewrite for “My Stepping Stone”.  So far I received one response!  The person said that after listening to the two versions a few times, they still like the original, My Stepping Stone”, better.  I will wait to see what others have to say.  I think this is a great way for me to stay in reality rather than in vagueness and confusion about the songs I am creating to be pitched to the tv & film world.

3.  So, “Lone Pine”  also aired on “Hay House Radio” on Friday, December 16th on their Second Episode.  I spoke briefly about what inspired me to write the song right before it.  You can also check out:  Lone Pine on You Tube

4.  In keeping current with Taxi, they have officially appoved and sent through 9 of the songs I have written thus far: “I’m No Saint” was sent to LakeHouse Sound.  “Don’t Make Me Say Goodbye” and “This Is Your Life” was sent to Munchkin Studios.  “Bend”, “Am I A Woman”, “Rain Fall Down On Me” and “Ceased” was sent to MCM Songs USA.  And finally, “Rain Fall Down On Me” and yes, “Pinocchio”, was sent to a music Licensing Agent!  I will find that boy a home!

5.  Two more things to share, one is that ”Lone Pine”, “Bend” and He’s Like Strawberry Milk” are playing regularly on Jango.  And I now have a total of 20 fans from that site!  I also have more data to see who my audience is, who is listening to my music and what other music they listen to.  And last week I received, for the second time, a PopScore of 84.  What that means is that my music was very popular with Jango listeners and as a reward Jango added 100 Bonus Play Credits to my account.

6.  Finally, “The Song Network” placed “He’s Like Strawberry Milk” in “Bert Gagnon Neon Productions Radio” rotation in mid November.

So, what is it that I have learned the most from all the actions I have taken since starting “365 Blogs To Finding Pinocchio A Home” a few months back?  I have learned that this game is not about winning.  This game is about growing and stepping into life fearlessly and wearing the shoes I used to wear, way back before life became complicated and the ego took over.  We were born with certain skills and qualities and personalities for a bigger purpose than ourselves.  As I explore this, day in and day out, I see that failure is nowhere to be found.  Just experiences and choices!

I hope to find Pinocchio the best home ever.  And I know that he will be guided to it when he is ready to leave me.  Until we meet again…

Blog #8 of “365 Blogs To Finding Pinocchio A Home” is right around the corner!

What will the theme of this one be?  Ah, I shall see what rings true to me. In the meantime, good news to share!

I was just sent “Women Of Substance Radio” Playlist  for this Tuesday, January 10th (4 PM ET, 1 PM PT).

“Lone Pine” will play 3rd on “What’s On My iPod Show”.  To listen & vote: http://www.live365.com/index.live

Then, starting this Wednesday, January 11th Women Of Substance Radio’s “HOT AC  SHOW“ will debut

“Lone Pine”  10:00 AM – 11:00 AM Pacific (1:00 PM – 2:00 PM Eastern).

Wanna spread some love?  Give a “thumbs up” or a “shout out” as you listen to “Lone Pine” at the above time over the next 3 months at:  www.live365.com/stations/breenoble  Or, just click on the widget at the bottom right of this page!

Abundance is what you already have within, not what you’re trying so hard to attain!

Welcome to 2012!  

Yes, 2012 has arrived.  I am looking forward to each and every day of it!  Blog #8 is coming very soon, but I wanted to give you January’s free download.  It’s a song I wrote a while ago and it is the perfect song to share with you at the beginning of this year.  You see, giving up is not in the cards I was dealt.  Never ever give up when you truly believe in something that makes sense and feels right.  “It’s Just Gonna Take Some Time”, that’s this month’s gift to you.  It’s truly one of my storytelling creations.  To grab it, go to the right of this page and put in the Promo Code: believe  

Enjoy!

Welcome to The Official Jennifer Vazquez Website!

Ok, the New Year is approaching!  Have you made your list of goals yet?  It’s a wonderful way to keep connected with what you have, what you want and what you truly need.  So, let’s keep the spirit of love & abundance alive!  The song I wrote, “Holiday Cheer”, is about being courageous, free of fear and about being of service to others. You can download it for free, if you have not already, until Jan 1, 2012. The Promo Code is “freesong”.  Just enter it into the space on the right hand side and it’s yours!  And Now…. Blog Series # 7 of “365 Blogs To Finding Pinocchio A Home”…

Blog #7: Reality vs Fantasy

Hope all of you are enjoying this Holiday Season!  2012 is right around the corner and I wanted to get one more blog in before 2011 ends.  Just to change it up a bit, I did a video blog for #7.  Enjoy and see you back here in the New Year!