365 Blogs To Finding Pinocchio A Home
Yes, accessing the true self to create abundance is the next theme. And I find it perfect to talk about this now, at the very start of 2012. I do not want to put my foot anywhere into 2012 without that foot being a part of my true self. I will be the first to tell you that living in truth and being exactly who I am is not easy, until I accept that “that” is who I am, take it or leave it!
Sure, I have wished I was someone else more times than I would like to admit. And yes, I have dreamed of having someone else’s life as well. But in doing that, it has guided me in the opposite direction to having an abundant life. In wanting what is not mine or is not in my reach has only made me unhappy and incomplete.
During 2011, a change occurred. A part of me began to shift in my mind and body as I began practicing full acceptance of myself. As I continued this practice, this inner completeness arose inside. I am excited to continue this way of being and I believe that to do so entails my staying fully present each and every day of my life. That is where true miracles unfold.
As I follow in this path and find the courage every day to stay in the here and now, allowing my true self to shine, I experience no struggle, no pain and no internal dialogue wondering if I am doing something wrong or if someone else is further along than I am. That doesn’t even exist. It all fades away and what is left is an inner calm that is indescribable. The goal is to stay present as much as possible, so I can stop the ego from entering through that back door it feeds off of so excitedly when I am in my head and not present. I see very clearly now that I have two parts inside of me, the true self and the ego. It is up to me to be aware of both of them so I can choose to stop my ego from acting out. And in that awareness, I am filled with abundance and calm. And that feeling of lacking and pain, well, it just vanishes. I see how the ego has fed off of me for so many years as I was in my head pondering and dreaming and staying disconnected to the present day. Oh yes, the ego has had a blast… And I don’t blame him or her. It’s just a part of me and now I can make sure not to have it control me.
So as I write blog # 8, I am quite certain that who I am now is not who I was a year ago. It’s like I finally found the right pair of glasses and now I can see all aspects of my life and those of others, without judgement, and that has given me insight, clarity and the willingness to live courageously. Simply put, where as a year ago I was a scared little girl dressed up in women’s clothes, hoping no one would find me out, today I am the start of a grown woman, an adult, comfortably accepting the little girl in me, who is now unafraid of her true self, and actually, is starting to see that it is in being her true self that abundance can now gently glide into her life, rather than rush in and out like a tornado.
And so, I share with you this song I wrote a while ago called, “This Is Your Life”. In a nutshell, this is your life! No one can do anything for you. You are the one who must take the actions. You are the one who must have the courage and faith to let go of the past and not stress about the future and start living the abundant life, that is already yours, if you decide to choose it right now, just as you are! And finally, certainty lies in two places, the first is within your true self and the second is in the miracles of nature! Take a look around and get out of your own head. It’s then, and only then, that your heart will start to beat to the perfect melody of each day! Give it a try…
In ending Blog #8, I give you my tiny little miracles that have come to me recently by taking one action at a time and being 100% myself:
1. So, this past Tuesday, January 10th (4 PM ET, 1 PM PT) “Women Of Substance Radio” played “Lone Pine” on “What’s On My iPod Show”. In addition, on Wednesday, January 11th Women Of Substance Radio’s “HOT AC SHOW“ debuted “Lone Pine” 10:00 AM – 11:00 AM Pacific (1:00 PM – 2:00 PM Eastern) on: www.live365.com/stations/breenoble . And it will be in their top rotation for 3 months!
2. What else? Oh, I sent out 4 emails last week to a few music professionals asking for some feedback on “I’m Still Here”, the rewrite for “My Stepping Stone”. So far I received one response! The person said that after listening to the two versions a few times, they still like the original, My Stepping Stone”, better. I will wait to see what others have to say. I think this is a great way for me to stay in reality rather than in vagueness and confusion about the songs I am creating to be pitched to the tv & film world.
3. So, “Lone Pine” also aired on “Hay House Radio” on Friday, December 16th on their Second Episode. I spoke briefly about what inspired me to write the song right before it. You can also check out: Lone Pine on You Tube
4. In keeping current with Taxi, they have officially appoved and sent through 9 of the songs I have written thus far: “I’m No Saint” was sent to LakeHouse Sound. “Don’t Make Me Say Goodbye” and “This Is Your Life” was sent to Munchkin Studios. “Bend”, “Am I A Woman”, “Rain Fall Down On Me” and “Ceased” was sent to MCM Songs USA. And finally, “Rain Fall Down On Me” and yes, “Pinocchio”, was sent to a music Licensing Agent! I will find that boy a home!
5. Two more things to share, one is that “Lone Pine”, “Bend” and He’s Like Strawberry Milk” are playing regularly on Jango. And I now have a total of 20 fans from that site! I also have more data to see who my audience is, who is listening to my music and what other music they listen to. And last week I received, for the second time, a PopScore of 84. What that means is that my music was very popular with Jango listeners and as a reward Jango added 100 Bonus Play Credits to my account.
6. Finally, “The Song Network” placed “He’s Like Strawberry Milk” in “Bert Gagnon Neon Productions Radio” rotation in mid November.
So, what is it that I have learned the most from all the actions I have taken since starting “365 Blogs To Finding Pinocchio A Home” a few months back? I have learned that this game is not about winning. This game is about growing and stepping into life fearlessly and wearing the shoes I used to wear, way back before life became complicated and the ego took over. We were born with certain skills and qualities and personalities for a bigger purpose than ourselves. As I explore this, day in and day out, I see that failure is nowhere to be found. Just experiences and choices!
I hope to find Pinocchio the best home ever. And I know that he will be guided to it when he is ready to leave me. Until we meet again…