12 Hours Left… Time To “Dork It Out”

12 Hours To Go… Help Jen Get Back In The Studio ‘n Back On Tour!

Twelve hours to go and you know what’s on my mind? I am ready to “Dork It Out”; today, tomorrow and every other day after, for the rest of my life! Confused? Don’t be. I shall explain…

Yesterday, I told you that I was off to a yoga workshop. What I didn’t tell you is that this would be NO ORDINARY YOGA CLASS. It was Jennifer Pastiloff’s manifestaion yoga workshop and it was truly a gift! I was one of 60 participants present; fifty-nine beautiful, abundant and amazing women and ONE very brave young man!

So what did it involve? Well, there was yoga, journaling, deep connection, focused listening, many tears, an abundance of love and a wild dance party, where we got to “dork it out” as Jennifer P. says.

“Dork it out”? LET LOOSE… BE FREE…. BE SILLY…

I will admit, this has never been something I’ve felt comfortable doing for most of my life. Yes, when I was younger, I experienced spurts of this. And yesterday, I got the opportunity to cut through the crap and begin the process of letting this side of me out, and wow, it felt so empowering! Yes, it’s a baby step process, of course, but I got to begin this whole concept of being silly, not giving a *$% and getting out of my head and back into my body!

At first, I felt really uncomfortable. What will people think if I act silly and look dumb? And then I was reminded that, the reality is, people actually don’t think anything about me. For the most part, everyone is just trying to do their best getting through their lives and it’s pretty certain they will not be noticing me, so what am I afraid of?

I tried to dance silly and have fun, and it just felt weird. But I really wanted out of my head and into my heart. Jen played, at full blast, a few different songs, each geared towards certain empowering exercises, and I kept feeling this huge tug inside me. It was like someone was dragging me into a corner saying, “Now you stay put and be good.” It was so LOUD!

And then, by the third exercise, something exploded inside me and I let out a ROAR! Yes, suddenly, I heard my voice shout out, from the top of my lungs, KIAI, as we all did this karate kick’n type movement to release every fear from our bodies and just trust we were totally in a safe space.

Yes!!! As the theme song from “8 Mile” blasted, my voice got louder and Louder and LOUDER, and the kicks; stronger and stronger and way more focused. It finally happended! The barrier dropped, the wall broke; I was out of my head and inside my body! It felt sooooooooooo darn goooooooood!

The day was truly a gift! I met so many strong women who captured my heart over and over and over again. It was a perfect way to relax into the end of this vision quest journey.

Afterwards, I went up to Jen to thank her and simply express what today felt like for me. I said something like this…

“You remember that day when you really needed a good cry, cause life was pilling up, and then Mom took you to get ice cream as she heard you out and hugged you until the tears all ran dry, and then, you both ended up laughing at it all and you then felt so refreshed, new and at peace? That’s what I experienced today!”

And as I sit here now, writing this last post, before this vision quest ends in 12 hours, I am willing to “dork it out” each day and stop taking myself so darn seriously!

Jennifer Pastiloff and I after yesterday’s workshop…