A Change of Creative Pace
Life happens when you least expect it to. That’s for sure! A few months back I got notice that I’d been cast in a short film, “Hi, My Name Is Scott”, playing the role of Judy, Scott’s mom, which ESPN aired as a Fantasy Football Special Feature on Dec 15, 2019.
“Hi, My Name Is Scott”
So, I wanted to share the short film with you because it has such a great message and was so well done. It’s about Fantasy Football… and so much more… Check it out…
My thoughts around addiction?
Addiction is real. I know. I relate 100% through my own experiences. We try to hide what we’re feeling with vices. We don’t even realize we’re doing it because it’s a disease and we can’t recover on our own. We need a support team. We need something greater than ourselves to restore us to sanity. It’s a ONE DAY AT A TIME way of life.
You don’t recover, ever, you simply continue to recover, daily, and learn a new way of being, one of service to others and yourself. SOOO MANY addictions you don’t even think about… Food, Money, Social Media (Selfie-Taking), Sex, Drugs, Alchohol…
Anyway, I am grateful I was a part of this short film. Awareness is the first step to moving forward in life. They did a wonderful job telling this dark true story in an upbeat light. Congrats again to the whole crew at Evolve Studios and all the actors involved! And thanks ESPN for covering this story.Thanks Sherry at Tribe Talent Management for sending me out for the role!
A Time For Reflection…
Life IS and I AM. This is what is clear to me now. Let me explain…
In 2018- 2019, I experienced more sadness, heartbreak and pain than I thought possible after losing my first true love, best friend and soul mate, Rich, who’d been a true constant in my life and an unconditionally loving man to me for 25 years.
I stood still for most of this past year, with little hope and a cloud over my head, wanting to know if the pain would ever lessen. I prayed, meditated, stopped doing pretty much everything that made my heart smile because it was broken 💔.
And one day at a time, I stood still, I stayed present and I stopped rushing through my life, not by choice, but through necessity. My whole life, I was determined and fearless and driven and passionate, trying so hard to be successful or “make it” as a songwriter or to feel important. All I was doing was rushing through my life, with blinders on, trying to get somewhere and thinking there would always be a tomorrow. I never saw what I see now after losing Rich.
Life is unpredictable, life is way to short and life is so precious. The things that mattered, or I thought mattered to me, they don’t anymore. What matters most now is my family, my close friends, being at peace and in serenity, choosing each day for myself and not judging how that looks, nor judging others for where they are or what they do or how they act. That’s their business, not mine.
The biggest grace I’ve found is that I don’t need to look outward anymore in search of answers; I can find what I need inside of me, every single day. It may take time but that’s all I have now; time.
I can’t turn back the clock. I wish I could, knowing all that I do now from Rich’s passing. He has taught me so much about myself, and from it, I continue to be patient with myself, as I find the new normal. Rich may not be with me physically, but over the past year and three months, I’ve created a new and healthy “spiritual” relationship with him. He’s with me each day and continues to warm my heart, more and more. And while grief will always be with me, in waves and sporadically, and my heart is forever broken, it doesn’t mean my life has stopped.
In 2020, I am hopeful to find my true purpose here on Earth; to uncover my passion again. However that shows up in me is fine. I’ll be listening to my heart, along with the whispers of Rich’s spirit and The Universe’s guidance to take me through this next part of my life.
One day at a time…
Some Food For Thought…
“When?”, One might ask. When the time is right, that’s when. So, be willing to take your time sorting through what’s within you. There is no rush. There is no competition. There’s just you and what you choose to create, inside and out, that brings joy to you and others. Life’s too short to worry about, well, pretty much any and everything.